ThIs_LiFe__It_AiNt_WoRth_It's Xanga

Sunday, May 01, 2005

Sun, 01 May 2005 07:44:58 GMT

This layout pisses me off. But I like how it looks. Just.. not how I have to use it. LOL.

Well I won't be updating here anymore. Only these 3 xangas..

~ Main
~ Mainstream
~ Emo

Saturday, February 26, 2005

Sat, 26 Feb 2005 03:07:31 GMT

I suck.. But at least I got premium trial! *cough* I won't even use it, except the toolbar and stuff like that. =)
I adopted a cute lil' death fetusfrom Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!
I shall name him Deacon.

I <3 my Deacon.

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

Wed, 16 Feb 2005 11:39:20 GMT

<3 Mimi's Random Sitey Thingy <3
Featuring:

Part of a forum? Avatar ideas!

PLUS!! Hilarious, trust me.

You've gotta see this!!!!

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

Wed, 16 Feb 2005 11:26:02 GMT

The homosexual thing is... someone commented and said something about it.. I dunno. Short term memory. Here it is, I looked it up! This was on leizlicious7's xanga comment, the question in my comments.

lezili the lesbian

Posted 2/12/2005 at 11:38 AM by STPDjake8

are you a homosexual???

Posted 2/12/2005 at 1:37 PM by STPDjake8

There you go. That creeped me out.

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Tue, 15 Feb 2005 11:51:35 GMT

Hello there everyone [meaning no one, most likely].
I absotively love this layout, it's gorgeous!
It reflects me as well. Yes I am a tad morbid.
In the side bar there are tonnes of things...
NavBar;
credits (meaning you get to use cool stuff!);
my pictures (which I had to take a screen shot of each,...
...put them on paint, one by one, paste them in a line...
...upload them to photobucket and put them in the layout);
Info;
blogrings;
chatterbox.

Earlier on I posted some poetry, before got this layout,
which is why some of the colors may be a bit hard on the eyes.
Just highlight them, don't worry. Trust me, it works.
Then again, if you didn't know that I'd say you have a smaller
brain than most.

Excuse me, if you don't like my Spirited Away music
turn your speakers off and put a CD on while reading this!
...Or just read it in silence.
I'm too used to sounds (i.e. music) around me for silence.

Anyways, have fun, subscribe to my xanga
read my xanga
love my xanga
SIGN THE GUESTBOOK on my xanga
make a few comments on my xanga.

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Tue, 15 Feb 2005 10:55:24 GMT

Poetry!

      Another Suicidal Thought
So the knife is on the dresser; the dresser's beside the bed. My patience is growing thinner, as there's no use fo rme to live. I only wish to be with him- nothing more and nothing less. But we can't be together, so I put myself to rest. Written in my blood, above where my body lies, is my tombstone on the ground, and this is what's inscribed:

"The blood came fast. It poured out from my heart. All the pain I felt, just tore me apart. no one understands, or even knows why. I was hurting so much, therefore I ended my life. He's all that I wanted, so wait is what I did. But time is short, and my time has been spent. I loved him more than anything; we were meant to be together. But now I am here, and will lay alone... forever."

By Jennifer Arnold

      My Suicide - For Joseph
I picked up the knife. I put it to my throat. Cut it just a little, and then began to choke. As I took in a breath, I realized the end was near. I slowly close my eyes, trying to hold back the tears. I feel death comming closer; it is my time to die. I'm sorry I didn't get to see you, and have the chance to say goodbye. I don't know why I did it. Can you ever forgive me for this? My last moments our upon me, as I remember our last kiss. You were always so good to me; you always stayed so true. That's one of the reasons I'm sorry that I am doing this to you. I just can't take it anymore- what life has thrown my way. But I'll always be with you, I promise, cuz in your heart I'll stay. WOW! You should see this light- it's shining in my eyes. Always remember- I love you, and I'm your angel in disguise.

By Jennifer Arnold

      After Sex
It's not what you did;
it's not what you said.
It's all that you tried,
to get me into bed.
It's all of your smiles,
and all your fake tears.
It's what's made me realize,
you've been a jerk all these years.
It's that you said you loved me,
and I chose to believe that was true.
But after we made love,
you said that we were through.
A long 6 months passed,
and then you waved when you rode by.
Getting my hopes up,
I couldn't help but wonder why.
All alone in that apartment,
I'm surprised that I let in.
Let in to what I was so against,
since I decided not to trust any men.
If only you could see,
it's not me, it was all on you.
You would soon realize,
it's what you didn't say and do.

By Jennifer Arnold

      I Hate You
I hate everything about you.
The way you talk; the way you stare.
I hate the way you lift up your hat,
and then brush back your hair.
I hate it when you call me,
and pretend everything is cool.
But to everyone else,
you talk shit like I'm a fool.
I hate it when you drive by my house,
and turn your fuckin' music.
Everytime I hear that shit,
it makes me want to lose it.
I don't want any reminders of you,
or that we even live in the same town.
I ripped all your stupid pictures up.
Yeah, that's right, I took 'em down.
You're such a fucking loser.
You think you are the best.
When really, you are nothing at all;
you're just like all the rest.
I'm so glad you're out of my life.
i can't take your shit anymore.
So don't go run your mouth about me,
telling all your friends that I'm a whore.
We are so over.
All my feelings for you are gone.
I thought it was forever.
I'm so glad I was wrong.
I don't miss you at all;
and I no longer frown.
My life is so much better,
now that you're not around.

By Jennifer Arnold

I think these are very pretty.